13 Weeks

Reason #1 for my long, extended hiatus from blogging.  WAAYYY back in April I started getting sick.  I just attributed my sickness to getting the flu and being super stressed at school.  Oddly enough the block we were studying at the time was "Women's Health" (go figure).  All my studying buddies kept telling me I was pregnant because I was so sick and I told them all they were CRAZY!  Anyway, May rolls around and my sickness wasn't getting any better and then I tried to remember the last time I had my period and well... I couldn't.  So it was off to the store to buy a test.
Back story/side note.  At the beginning of January, Les and I were talking about when we should start trying for another baby.  It took us just over 2 years to get pregnant with Eden and so I figured it was going to take a while to get pregnant again.  I told Les that I had a master plan.  If we got pregnant in March, I would have a baby in December and then I would take my 6 week break from school in Jan/Feb and it would work out FABULOUS!  Well, Les IMMEDIATELY shot down the idea.  After a long discussion and a couple good bribes, Les told me that if I waited until after I graduated to get pregnant he would let me have 3 kids instead of just the 2 he said he only wanted.  So I quickly said "DEAL!" and that was the end of it... or so we thought.  

After I took the test, I avoided telling Les for a day or two because I wasn't sure how he was going to react. Finally, one day after work/school Les asked me what the crap was wrong with me because I hadn't been feeling well.  I told him "I'll give you one guess"... well, he guessed.  Then he proceeded to tell me that I had tricked him and that this had been my plan ALL along (false!).  After the initial shock of "how are we going to afford this?" and "what are you going to do about school?" freakout, Les was happy that now he only had to have 2 kids instead of three (or so he thinks)...

I avoided my family for the next couple of weeks as the nausea and sickness and death over came me.  Have I mentioned that my body hates me the first couple (and by couple I mean like 5) months of pregnancy? Some how, I miserably made my way through my last few weeks of school (thanks for putting up with me Sara!) and tried my hardest not to be a dead beat mom, but can I just say that being a mom, going to school, having a job, cleaning the house, being a wife is NOT fun when all you want to do is hang out with your new best friend the toilet!

After my last official day of school I headed up to my parents to pick up Eden and see my mom for mother's  day (a few days late).  I had my mom's mother's day gift and so when I got there I changed Eden into a shirt that said "BIG SISTER" and had her walk the present out to my mom with the rest of my family in the room.  Marcia was the first to notice and also the first to be VERY upset I didn't tell her sooner.  I had unsuccessfully avoided a 5K I was suppose to run with her the weekend before because I was so sick.  I blamed it on the flu but she didn't believe me.  The best part was when my dad saw the shirt, he was really confused.  He was like "Why is Eden wearing a shirt that says big sister when it's Christy who is pregnant?"' (um..ya, he couldn't connect the dots).  Marcia had to spell it out for him to which he replied "OOOOOHHHH".  We all got a good laugh. The following week it was my little nephew's birthday on Les' side and so Eden wore her shirt there as well to spread the news.  Les' mom is VERY excited to say the least.  She has been bugging me for a while to have another baby... well her wish is coming true!

Anyway, I haven't done much beside lay and bed and suffer through my rotations for the past few weeks. I haven't been to the doctor's yet, but on Wednesday I went to fetal fotos and had an ultrasound done.  Mostly because I wasn't sure of my due date and I wanted to make sure there was only 1 baby and a heart beat.  For weeks Eden has been telling me that I have a baby brother AND a baby sister in my belly and frankly, I got worried. Thankfully, there is in fact only one baby inside me and it's heart was just a beating away.  Eden got to come with me and she loved to see her baby sister (or so she now claims) on the TV. 

According to the ultrasound my due date is 12.12.12.  Wouldn't that be totally awesome if that was the birthday?!

It was kind of a surreal moment being in that ultrasound.  I'm still having a hard time coming to grips with the fact that I will have another baby.  I remember being so excited and emotional during Eden's first ultrasound and this time with Eden in the room and looking at the little baby now inside me, I felt a little worried... I'm not sure how this is all going to work.

Eden has been my world for 2 1/2 years now and she's my first born, my little baby.  How is she going to feel about another person taking up my time.  She already throws a fit if Les tries to help her in any way.  It's always been "I want my mama to do it!" So as you can see...It's going to take some time for me to figure all this out, but until then.. .I'm just going to focus on not being sick!  Say a prayer for me! 

Well, there you have it.  If I have been avoiding you or have played the I have the flu card on you... now you know why.  With all this said let me just add that I am very excited to have another baby.  I can't wait to hold them and smell that new baby smell.  I will definitely be more excited when the sickness ends...(have I made it clear that I'm awful sick?!)